miércoles, 5 de diciembre de 2007

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ok... when we last left of... the protagonist of our story... a.k.a. "ME!" xD just suffered a big change... and at first evrything was going well...

last days of november: the DotA tournament was coming so fast that my team had no time to practice the combos... (personal note: i did do the combos... but for all pick... not for normal pick... T.T) plus.. to add that.. my mind was one other place.. i was thinking.. time and time again... bout... her.. bout how i'd give it all up 4 her... and i was happy.. happy just 2 be by her side.. she was my ana pascal and i was her mr. crick... i had to balance my days in... exercise... (personal note: i HATE running... but i do it evryday... and no more weight lifting 4 me T.T) training DotA with the team and doing sumthing with her... or at least talking 2 her... it was a busy couple of weeks xD.... then the dota tournament came.. and half of my team didn't showed up... i was so angered!

1st of dicember: has it ever happen 2 u... that evrything is going 2 damn right... and sumthing just oughta go wrong... well... this day... this is a fucked up day!... it started just as any other in that week... i stayed at home that day to help my mom in evrything... she wanted to make a video 4 her work... she is the owner of cominco... she works so hard! i admire her... sumday... i'll be able to pay her back 4 all she does 4 me and my lil sis... then it was time to go out n party... sumthing told me that this day wasn't a good day 2 go out... but still... i didn't listen...

it was bruna's bday party... wich i do not understand why she celebrated 2 WEEKS BEFORE! xD.. go figure ^^.. anywho... (personal note: i stole that frase from my wife n kids xD... the only reason i turn on the tv ^^ "anywho...") it was rly fun... at the beginning tons of ol' geezers were havin a blast dancin n i was so @.@ xD... brazillians rly r diferents xD... paraguayans would not likely do that xD...

then sum classmates push me 2 the dancefloor... (personal note: is not that i don't like dancing... i just don't like sum of the music they had on..) and i had to dance -.- xD... so the party when on and on till 5 am... n then... sumthing happened... after that i just... lost all joy at once.. it was as i had fallen from the mountain wich i was just begining to climb... anyways... since that i'm vry different.. i know u understand.. cuz u were the only one that did... i won't say i'm sry.. cuz u know.... but... what i said... i still do feel that way... and i just need time.. time to calm... i'm not asking for u to forgive me 4 the stuff i said... i just want u to understand.. my decisions... it's not a goodbye... is a "i'll see u later alligator ;)"...

the first days of december: well... since dicember 1st not so much had happened... the days kinda come n go as they please... i made the vid 4 my mom n evryone at her work was so proud of me... kinda made me feel that i'm not a total waste 4 her ^^... i just live 4 her these days... driving her arround... helping her out... trying to atone 4 18 years of revelry ^^...

today: today is a weird day... i shoould be more exited... is my graduation... n i'm just so neutral... i just try to smile... but have no reason... but no reason not to either... i have evrything prepared 4 tonight... just... wish me good luck evry1... i'll need it...


thx 4 reading this... and as i promised... here goes 2 poem i wrote a long time ago... the first one is for my fallen hamalach.. the one that made me strong 4 so long... and the other one... is for my grandpa.. he was the person i respected, admired, cherished and adore... when he died... raziel was born... so here they go...

ode to the HaMalach

i'll flourish u in darkness
be ur dark temptress
the desire u can't handle
inside ur skin i'll crawl

i'll fill ya with lies
yet.. awnser all ur cries
fear u wanna have
pleasure u can't stop

i'll eat ur soul
and fill u with mine
touch ur heart
only to crush it

i'll show u inside
but be warned
not to come in
or u may never leave

i'll sing u my lullaby
of death or rejoice
kiss u good night
and plz do sleep tight

cus the angel of black wings
is hunting again...


is hard to say goodbye

our time have come
and we shall be one no more
when i felt i had no partner
you were there for me

in times of happyness
and in my darkest hour
u were holding my hands
wiping my tears

when i thought i was left alone
u stood by me, telling me
u'll allways be by my side
that if i'd want
u'll spread u'r wings
and we'll fly away

is so hard
to accept ure gone
that is time to walk alone
is so hard to say goodbye


si quieren dejar un comentario.. ahi ta el shoutbox... o directamente dejas un comentario ahi donde dice "comentarios" xD... pero ese tarda mas ^^

ok... with nuthing more 2 say

see ya space cowboys

--> Chapter 1 <--- "on recent events" part 1

wow! this is way overdue... sry for the time i left this place unatended... i'm back and with lots and lots to say... (btw... 4 all who ask why do i write in english... i rly have no idea xD)

this past month was so full of moments, some were good... other best to let them go... i went through a personality change... and had to begun tons of stuff anew... i finished school and turned 18... my mom's sickness got worse and i think i lost sum1 vry dear 2 me... if i could go back in past i'd do the same though... cuz i'm what my past made me ^^...

i wanted to talk a little bout the recent events and i wanted to go kinda by timeline... here it goes


31 oct: yay! i turned 18... not quite as i spected but now i was oficially able to drive, vote, plus.... i could now travel whenever i wanted... so i kinda was bouncing off the walls again... looking like a fool again ^^ hahaha. then the celebration came... it was at my "estancia" or house in the ¿woods? xD... it was diferent as i had envisioned it... trying to mix u'r hardcore friends with u'r schoolmates... is not the greatest idea ever... still ^^ no hostility! i was amazed how evry1 found sumthing 2 do and evrything went well... (personal note: yay 4 the kiss my son! xD... u know!)
i did act inmature with my dear special sum1... as allways... the fight between lexx and alex endured and i hurt her with my envy... sry...

anyways... the rest of the evening went great... i got to see my classmates drunk... hahaha ale servin is so different when he is drunk!... anyways... a lot of drunk dudes singin karaoke that night ^^. after evrything was at its end the next day evry1 went home and my friends and i went 2 gaby's house to wach "primitivo" (personal note: suuuuucky movie!)

november 12: school's done! at last... i finished my first stage in life... i passed all subjects and was officially a graduate! even though it is a big deal... i still haven't assimilated vry well -.- ^^

a lot of celebrations from time to time... lots of parties as well!

mids of november: my mom keeps of getting worse... i dunno what to do and makes me mad... sooo mad... my mind starts to be unstable and lexx is losing control... untill.. the day came... my longlost raziel came back... he started to haunt me and i was vry scared.. it's hard to explain and sum time have already passed so i'll just put a msn conversation with my savior... ken! (personal note: i dunno where i'd be without my friends... thank u all!)

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:05):

ken...

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:05):

O_O

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:05):

o.o acabo de enviarte el bloc con lo del rol...

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:06):

o.o Alejo?

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:06):

he... he... his back

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:06):

he's back

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:06):

everywhere i see

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:06):

my eyes

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:06):

turn into his eyes

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:06):

i'm crying ken

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:06):

why!

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:07):

That's the exact question that I was gonna ask

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:07):

What are you talking about?

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:07):

i though... thought i was stronger

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:07):

i didn't need him anymore

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:07):

i'm scared

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:07):

Who is Hamalach?

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:07):

the eyes...

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:07):

hamalac

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:07):

hamalach

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:07):

he's my sorrow

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:07):

my torment

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:08):

he's the one that used me

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:08):

made u hate me

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:08):

i can't look in the mirror anymore

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:08):

hate you? uh?

And why is he back?

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:09):

i don't know!!!

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:09):

it is not like i called him!

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:09):

not this time

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:09):

raziel can't be back!

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:09):

he was dead!

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:09):

whyyy

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:10):

everywhere... he laughs...

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:10):

Eh. ¿Ha pasado algo en los últimos días como para que volviese?

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:10):

tengo miedo ken

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:10):

tengo miedo xq no soy bueno en nada

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:10):

xq no puedo llegar a mis metas

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:11):

y por qué llegaste a esa conclusión?

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:11):

me siento devil

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:11):

debil

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:11):

y xq trato y trato

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:11):

pero me voy hacia atras en vez de adelante

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:11):

qué es lo que tanto tratas en... err... accomplish?

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:11):

what's is it that you try so hard to accomplish?

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:12):

freedom...

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:12):

no

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:12):

it is not that

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:12):

that's just what i think it is

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:12):

quiero que mi madre mejore

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:12):

quiero bajar de peso

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:12):

quiero ser amado

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:12):

quiero que mis amigos me aprecien

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:13):

quiero q nadie me vea y diga q no valgo la pena

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:13):

no quiero q me abandonen!

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:13):

me siento solo

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:13):

Chill...

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:13):

Vos en realidad que no sos Alex.

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:13):

¿O quizás Raziel rompió a Lexx?

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:14):

[Desconozco a HaMaLach, no sé si se tratará tb de Raziel]

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:14):

pero eso es lo de menos.

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:14):

hamalach es angel

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:14):

angel es raziel

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:14):

lexx... lexx ya no es mas

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:14):

por lo visto

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:14):

yo.. yo no se quien soy!

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:15):

Sos Alex. Esa identidad, la más poderosa de todas; ese eres.

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:15):

Supongo que tocó turno a Alex de hacer frente a la vida que Raziel y Lexx le construyeron.

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:16):

quizás?

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:16):

ac un tiempo q estoy tratando de mantener

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:16):

pero hoy... hoy me cayo todo ensima

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:16):

no puedo aguantar

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:16):

sry to bother u...

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:16):

you are not bothering

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:16):

es q... no puedo hablar con nadie mas

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:16):

confio mucho en vos ken...

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:17):

sea cualfuere mi personalidad... siempre te confiaria todo

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:18):

Está bien... Eso es porque para ti, no tengo razones para backstabbing, ni soy así.

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:18):

pero eso si... es normal. Si se te vino tod encima, es porque Alex estuvo mucho tiempo dejando que Lexx mantuviera el órden

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:18):

pero... tengo miedo de no poder mantenerme...

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:18):

te lo tengo que decir?

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:19):

Si quieres que tu madre mejore, debes estar ahí para apoyarla. El miedo de la incertidumbre es normal; no por ello te debes dejar vencer. Por ella, no debes.

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:19):

es cierto

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:19):

es tan cierto

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:19):

Quieres bajar de peso, y yo sé que Alex tiene la fuerza de voluntad más que suficiente para superar eso y tener la figura que desee. Aunque a mi me gustaría que descansara de eso de tanto en tanto.

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:20):

Lo de amado, supongo que se trata de "amado por una mujer"... No es así, acaso, ya?

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:20):

no amado por una mujer...

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:20):

amado por mis amigos...

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:20):

recuperar lo q perdi

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:20):

o perdieron

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:20):

quiero volver a tenerles como antes

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:20):

Tus amigos, te aprecian. Quizás ahora el grupo esté algo distanciado por la poca actividad, pero es cosa de tomar una iniciativa. Nadie nunca dejó de apreciar a nadie... Al menos hasta donde sé.

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:21):

lo de "quiero q nadie me vea y diga q no valgo la pena" confieso, no entendí

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:21):

y no serás abandonado... Esa deberia ser la última de tus preocupaciones.

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:21):

Ah, falta que el grupo se reuna como antes. Falta un denseo o algo así, qué sé yo.

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:22):

siento... siento q solo me ven como un anexo y no como una persona... uds me hablan a mi y por eso los quiero tanto... pero estoy cansado de ser "el compañero de..." "el amigo de.." "el vino por"

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:23):

no tengo ganas de contarle a koshi... xq el odia a raziel... mas q a nadie

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:23):

Tenés el trauma de Alejo cuando recién se acopló al grupo

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:23):

y a alejo...

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:23):

no quiero que raziel lo use de vuelta

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:24):

No es así como dices. Al menos no conmigo. Dudo que con los demás. Yo no te conozco como "el compañero de pepito" o "el amigo de Alejo" [como antes, ALejo creía que, para nosotros, él era solo "el amigo de alex"] o "el vino por tal"... Yo te conozco por Alex. Y eres de los pocos que considero cercanos. Lo mismo con Adrián. Lo mismo con Alejo.

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:25):

Con más razón

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:25):

debes tú, Alex, mantenerte fuerte.

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:25):

me siento como un niño ken...

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:25):

es todo tan diferente a el año pasado...

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:25):

A sabiendas de que, de todas formas, siempre nos tienes a Adrián, Alejo y a mi para hacerte el aguante. Eso sí es seguro.

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:25):

grax

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:25):

Muchos cambios en la vida de todos.

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:26):

realmente lo aprecio

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:26):

No hay por qué, es la verdad nada más.

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:26):

Como dije, solo falta una reunión, densear un rato, qué sé yo.

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:27):

por ahora todo me parece tan grande

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:27):

y que si quisiera

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:27):

raziel simplemente pudiera pisarme

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:27):

no tengo rumbo

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:27):

Quizás sea Ka[rma], haciendo que veas el mundo del modo contrario a como lo veía Lexx [me la tomé con Lexx parece, pero es lo que se me viene a la mente].

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:27):

pero se... se que debo mantenerme fuerte

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:28):

es que puede ser... lexx veia todo a su alcanze

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:28):

Pero Raziel no lo ha hecho, y dudo que se atreva. Él sabe que no le conviene.

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:28):

aunque no lo esté

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:28):

Lo bueno de Lexx es que, a pesar de verlo todo a su alcance aunque no fuera así, él hacía lo posible para que lo fuera.

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:29):

El problema era que se llevaba a lo que sea que estuviera de por medio...

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:30):

y los hirio

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:30):

y hasta ahora

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:30):

...

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:30):

no recupere lo q perdio

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:33):

mm, me divagué todo mal yo solo ahora x.x

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:33):

xq?

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:33):

iba a decir un ejemplo

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:33):

pero no iba bien

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:34):

y le di vueltas y me enrendé con el hilo mental

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:34):

yo necesito ser mas fuerte... pienso q solo no puedo... dps veo a lexx y veo el otro extremo

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:34):

y raziel se rie...

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:35):

se rie de q yo esté tan desesperado

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:35):

este es mi pensamiento... me molesta

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:35):

hoy me cayo todo de una

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:35):

"yo... yo estoy pensando que puedo hacer... quiero llegar a mis metas.... i want to strive forward.... but i feel so little... so puny... "

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:36):

Ajá. Raziel es inteligente, a pesar de todo; sabe que Lexx no es la respuesta.

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:36):

strive?

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:36):

strive es acarriar hacia un lugar

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:36):

strive foward es caminar mirando hacia delante

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:37):

Tu mismo lo dijiste: Necesitas ser más fuerte.

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:37):

Ahora te sientes así, porque se te vino todo encima

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:37):

la realidad te pegó la patada en la cara, como diría Koshi

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:38):

pero una noche de descanso, una reflexión, o una distracción con los amigos, ya te pondrán mejor. Y espero así, puedas seguir, como Alex, y no Lexx.

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:38):

Aunque parece que Raziel gustoso se encargará de que sea así.

-->[LeXx]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:38):

la ironia es q pase de ser la serpiente... a el conejo

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:39):

el conejo es feliz sin necesidad de venenos o de comer otras criaturas

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:39):

es más, se la pasa TODO el día "siendo feliz" xD

-->[AleX]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:40):

haha... una vez... q acomode todo lo q deje caer... voy a poder ser feliz todo el dia

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:41):

Exacto.

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:42):

Claro que el conejo sabe cuando parar de "ser feliz" y ponerse serio, si algo pasa. Tampoco dejarse llevar por esa felicidad xP

-->[AleX]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:43):

grax ken... me ayudaste a levantar mi primera muralla... la inseguridad ya no tengo tanto miedo.... tengo q hacerme mas fuerte atra vez de la felicidad... no del odio y envida como lexx

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:44):

Cuando gustes.

-->[AleX]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:45):

debo bajar de peso no para q lo demas me quieran! si! era obvio... la razon por la cual ya no estaba bajando tanto de peso!

-->[AleX]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:45):

debo bajar para q yo este bien conmigo mismo!

-->[AleX]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:45):

dps vienen los demas

-->[AleX]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:45):

no puedo esforzarme solo xq los demas me veran mejor

-->[AleX]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:46):

tengo q esforzarme para sonreir por lo que logro

-->[AleX]<-- the past... IS HERE!!! dice (21:46):

ahora tiene sentido!

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:46):

o.o Duh...

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:46):

Primero debes amarte a ti mismo, sino no puedes amar a los demás... es la lección que repiten, consciente o inconscientemente, siempre en la escuela.

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:46):

Ese era el error de Lexx.

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it was the way he saw it... he wasn't so perfect after all

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el pensaba

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q si todos le querian

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me querian...

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ahi ibamos a ser felices

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no de otro modo...

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:48):

Claro. Pero acordate de mantener un equilibrio.

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:48):

A pesar de que lo primero es que tú debes sentirte satisfecho contigo mismo... Estás condenado a ser humano, y por tanto, necesitas también de otros.

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si... no soy raziel ¬¬ el pensaba de ese modo

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:49):

Vale recalcar, nada más n_n; Por si acaso.

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de todos modos el pensaba q solo era invensible

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eran mis dos extremos

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ahora entiendo...

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ninguno de los dos extremos esta completamente bien

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es el equilibrio... lo q debo conseguir

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y el equilibrio se consigue con tiempo

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no de dia a la mañana

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como pensaba... antes

剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:51):

No. Es cosa de experiencia, supongo.

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y exp = time... at least that's what logic says
剣Ken Dx - The Mad Hatter - The Ka-mai dice (21:52):
Yesh, I guess. Ahora, la cantidad de tiempo, eso suele variar mucho



ok... i think this is a bit 2 long so... i'll continue on the next entry ^^



and as allways... sry 4 the mistakes in the caligraphy... i just write... i don't write well xD


see ya space cowboys